Congested:

I came across this blog post that I wrote a while back, in March and never published it, and its amazing to see how my previous post compares to this one. Enjoy :)

"My mind is everywhere but where it needs to be.

I feel completely congested, congested with thoughts, an overflowing amount of thoughts. My social, personal and academic life consists of nonstop movement, constantly going, attending, learning and being proactive about things. Ive grown accustomed to its crazyness and the beautiful perks of it but then ... (theres always a big but) your happy go lucky ass trips, falls and your left face down kissing the pavement.

Thats exactly where I am today, kissing pavement, ...tripped, fell and crashed. From family issues, to future plans, to end of the semester academic pressure, my head is in so many places right now, i rather just detach it and go headless. I much rather be out shopping, or in my bed reading an inspirational book, or even with my close-knit group of girls, gossiping, chatting and laughing it up in my apartment than in this library getting a whole lot of work done (insert line face here). Better yet, can someone take me back to Miami where I had no worries except whether I was getting a call a cab from Wet Willies or a 190 Octane from Fat Tuesdays. Ahhh - the lifeeeeee.

A little venting to de-congest. I'll be back with normal Dar soon."

I'm Hungry, .... but not for food .

Reflecting back on my life these past couple of months, I feel like I had a fast pass, front row seat ride on the King Da Kha rollercoaster and rode that bad boy until it's wheels came off. From personal family losses, to feelings of overlwhelmedness, to academic problems, to an excessive amount of stress, to question marks about my future, if my middle name was "Soft" I would have chucked up the deuces and moved to Zinbabwe just to run away from it all.
Nonetheless, five months later, my senior year of college is officially over and I'm still standing strong and moving forward.

But, wait, ... pause, ... how can I not move forward and triumph with such a strong, incredible support system by my side? I'm not big on expressing my feelings of defeat but when the people around you are doing nothing but positive, fabulous, uplifting things in their life, closing the door and throwing in your life towel becomes a difficult task. Seeing my friends, family members, loved ones and sorors graduating and getting jobs allows me to bury all the doubt and fear of what's to come and gets me super hype and hungry for my future. Hungry isn't even the word to describe it because I have no single doubt in my mind that I won't be successful in my future endeavors. (<--- owwww, at my big word of the day lol)

If there's one thing I can take from my chaos I can truly say these rough couple of patches have opened my eyes to my passion in life, .... helping others, particularly our future youth. I was always focused on becoming a school counselor to guide children and aide them but due to the influence of a couple education courses I took this past semester as well as an academic flop (which I now see was for the better) I envision myself as a youth coordinator, an advocate, even a director for non profit organizations within inner city or urban communities. Perhaps, even building my own non profit organization in the future, promoting social change and empowering our youth. (something a little like this http://www.genv.net/ or this wemakedreamswork.org .

All in all, this post is just to send a little ray of sunshine for the ones full of fear, doubt, sadness, and regret.“There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other.” -Douglas H. Everett

Some insightful sites on building your dreams and taking action:
1. http://www.pushydreamers.com/
2. raevenwestern.com
3. akuatheactivator.blogspot.com

-Dar ♡

Triple P's .

In midst of devastation, (such as the crisis in Japan) I've always been extremely good at playing the Little Miss Daisy role and keeping things light. Times like these, I wake up feeling blessed and refreshed wanting to lay a big fat juicy one on my intimate loved ones and spread the love. ((Throws up peace sign & walks around the room like a hippie))

If there's anything I've grasped and held onto within my tender years of living it's to love, live, be happy, dream big and then most importantly keep it POSITIVE, PROACTIVE and PRODUCTIVE. There's no point in crying over spilled milk so if you want something go out there and get it ... love something, go out there and tell them. Be POSITIVE, PROACTIVE and PRODUCTIVE about the events going on in your life.

Triple P's all day shun!

Keeping it bright with a little fashion loving, of course:
I was informed about this newly founded fashion site & greatly encouraged to submit an entry for 6inch walker of the week, and suprisingly I won!

http://www.6inchsociety.com/





Check it out the site and in the name of fashion, support the cause. These girl's will definetely give the down town basic bish a run for her money. I'm off to keep it productive for the day. Keep the Triple P's rolling lovelies :)

-Dar <3

Judge Me.

What is it about being judge that fuels me? Makes me want to throw on my game face and score straight buckets.

Let's face it, living the college life and living life period, you're bound to be judged here and there. A little bit of "she's conceited" mixed with a little bit of "she swears" topped off with "she knows nothing" is bound to slap you in the face from time to time. Then of course, walks in Ms.insecurity with Mr.questioning and the self doubting begins.

Let's side track a little. Before you stamp me with a title, learn the basics:

I'm young, twenty years young at that and full of ambition. I'm enrolled full time in school, very actively involved within my sorority as well as working two part times jobs to make it happen. Did I mention how aside from my outer shell, I would go out on a limb for those I truly care about? Or did I mention how I love love loveee laughing and rather stay in comfy and cozy than out rump shaking and fist pumping? Or did I even mention how I care waaayyy too much about my loved ones, to the point where their pain is my pain?
Eh, I must have failed to squeeze these "minor" details in between the finger pointings and the whispers.

I myself am still realizing little things about me I never knew, so why even take another's petty thoughts into consideration?

The good thing is, I've slowly learned to take these things, form them it into positive and run with it. I'm learning, making mistakes, experiencing and most importantly growing along the way.

But go ahead, Don't let me stop you ...be the judge of me.




On a brighter note, who doesn't love this woman? A little Lauryn Hill to soothe the judging soul. Keep it classy babies! :)






-Dar ♡

Cleanse .

Its 7am, and I'm up twirling back and forth in my bed so why not just kick back and let loose? (Pulls a chair and gets comfy)

My career goals involve helping people, children, college students. Ultimately, advising the older ones and guiding them in what they want to do with their lives, as well as through personal and emotional problems. I don't consider myself the "average jane", but I'm a girl, living the college dream and experiencing rollercoaster rides along the way ... Why not share with others? You never know who can relate and see some comfort in another persons story.

The truth is, I've never been an emotionally outward person. My personal life and feelings have always been just that, personal. Yet these past two semesters I've been overwhelmed with thoughts and experiences so once again, why not release, emotionally CLEANSE and give it back to the world? ...Let the Blogging begin!


(This is my first blog post. So bear with me people.) Other than that, ...sit back and enjoy the ride.


-Dar ♡